Run Down

so it's been a week, and I've kinda been MIA. You know a lot went down, so I was off line a bit. Hmph let's see. There was My Keeya luv's high school graduation. Major congrats on that. I totally love you for the major accomplishment. My cousin Arnold also graduated high school so MAJOR MAJOR congrats to him too...loved his Grad party :) Some chillin' with the besties- ya know had to do some reconnecting & even a date on Sunday night to start the week off. That one was kinda great, i like him :) On the flip side, I've been tryna set up my blackberry with the help of the ex ex who is all the way in PA... I heart my Julian. God knows what I would do without him when it comes to technical stuff. N E how, lots of pics to share...so I'll be back after work I suppose...this was just a run down

Conscious, Cautious, and Careful!!!

A friend of mine sends me a message over Myspizzle saying, "yo I witnessed some wild shit tonight." Me being Curious Ashmalli was like "tell me." & here goes his response:

"on my way back from the strip club last night my boy pickd up some druggd up white girl brought her to my udda boy crib n he beat it right in front of us...raw. n b4 he picked her up she looked like her pimp or boyfriend beat her up...eww. i am not shmokin wit that dude nooo mooo."

Wow Was all I could say. I saw this friend of mine today, and he proceeded to tell me the rest of the story. You know how the girl was extra drunk & she obviously was totally out of it.

Now I have mad issues with this situation which is why I'm thoroughly disgusted.

1. WTF would you have random sex with some random chick, and "raw" at that. People wonder how they get shit A.k.A. diseases...this is exactly how. It's almost like-let's call him Mr. Shupid ass- was asking for it.

& then poor girl. Although she put herself in the situation, I completely sympathize with her. She obviously has some kind of problems to have been in a situation like this one. & you know after, they just dumped the poor girl on the sidewalk. What an asshole. I swear.

As a generation we need to be more conscious, cautious, and careful when it comes to our very own well beings. If we don't look out for us, no one else will. This is exactly why "Young people ages 15-24 account for 42% of new HIV infections." Yes it is researched folks, that's almost half.

So smarten up folks. We are living in not so friendly times.

Are you talking care of you?

Questions Unanswered...

I tell you being a girl is tough business. So so much to go through. I think I'm finally ready to ask that question. So far this summer I've been going through a world wind of emotions. First I kinda lost the 1st guy I've ever seriously loved but I guess everyone has to go through that, so what made me think I could escape it. With that notion, I've been trying to look at things on the bright side because really him and I are just not meant to be. Not tryna play him in the least bit, but he's the most selfish person I've ever met. Which leads to my questions unanswered.

Can you love someone and not want to make the relationship work?

- I know people have different notions but I personally believe it's not possible. I'm an only child & I have been for all my life now. I am probably one of the most selfish people you will ever come across (no worries I'm working on it). I usually just think about me, what makes me happy, all that jazz. But with this guy, I was never like that. I loved him so much I put my selfishness aside. I put a lot of effort into the relationship. I planned everything, made all arrangements, all he had to do was show up and he could hardly do that. Puzzling part is, he goes around telling everyone he loves me and we just can't work because he can't give me what I need. Mind you, I like pretty things, but I like to get them for myself so that was never an issue. He meant emotionally. WTF! So I pose another question to you fine blogging folks...

If you really and truly love someone, wouldn't you WANT to give them what they want? At least that's how I felt about him. I was always there...

Now I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place-that is how the saying goes right?
I'm not so trusting of guys anymore, but I guess that's for the best. I swear everyone things they got game. But behind this mini essay I just wrote my questions really are:

-If you love someone, wouldn't you want to give them what the need?
- Can you love someone and not want to make the relationship work.

Just Not Tonight!

So tonight has turned into another random Friday. I'm sure there are things to do somewhere out there in this world, but I'm really just not up to it. Today I went to Philly to look at apartments and that actually went well. However, it took up most of my day and now I'm just drained. went shopping with Missy for a bit and added to the Bra collection. Come on, don't act like you don't know Vicki S's semi annual is on right now LOL. Luv it.

Speaking of shopping, it's pay day and my check is done already :( that shit is kinda depressing. I seriously need another job if I'm gonna survive. No idea why kids wanna grow up. That was never me, and now that I am -grown up that is- I still feel the same way.

N E how, I'm going to bed. Lots more to share, but just not tonight.

How's your Friday night?

Snipped Snipped with the quickness!!!

Alright, today I was actually gonna post a question that I really wanted an answer too. But an asshole pissed me off and I shall write about that instead.

I was talking to this guy, matter of fact he was talking to me because I could care less. He calls me last night and we're talking on the phone and he asks me what I'm doing on Friday. I said I'm going out with a friend and he keeps pushing to find out if it's a female or not. Finally he gives up, and says he's gonna go to bed, so being me -you know the one who doesn't care- I said bye.

This NIGGA -yes I said it- calls me back like three times and I really didn't feel like answering so I let that shit ring. He leaves a voicemail and this is how it goes:

"Yo I don't know who you think you are but you're being a bitch right now. You think you're the shit, blah blah blah blah....loose my number."

LMFAO..Homeboy def lost his effin' mind right? Yea, that's what I was thinking.
Like my girl B says," He must not know bout me." Shout outs to you Mr. Fean, I don't want your ass, I never wanted you, it's been 5 yrs now and you're still trying mad hard. So How bout you 1 yeaself (do people say that n e more LOL) & loose my shit because quite frankly, you act like I call you, dude you call me.

& for all you other dudes out there, that disrespectful shit does not work. You will be snipped snipped with the quickness. Yes I do think I'm the shit & quite frankly you should too...

Great, I got it all out. But real quick that "bitch" thing really pissed me off. It would have bothered you too right??