Emailing Is Da New Craze Gurl, Try It!!!

You guys won't believe this BS. I have a sat morning 9am class. I take the subway to school, NYC ya know.

My train was super messed up today. It usually takes me 25 mins to school, today it took me an hour and 10mins.

WHY IS CLASS CANCELED???

Has home girl never heard of emailing? I could have been asleep for at least an additional 4 hrs. And to top it off, I switched with a bunch of people at work today because I wanted to go in right after class. Now I have two hrs of nothing to do. Can't even do shopping. Stores do not open at 9am.

Anyhow, its whateva. My outing yesterday with the bestie was the best. Awesome times, can't wait until her birthday which is in less than 2 weeks. Woop Woop :)
Happy Saturday ya'll :)

The Run Down

I've been gone for 2 whole weeks and have missed you guys like CRAZYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!! Don't even know where to start, but I guess school would be good.

As you guys know I'm not at Temple this semester but I am taking two classes while I am at home, just to keep my brain active ya know. I love my business management class, makes me wanna smack my ill equip managers every time I see them SMH. Philosophy is CRAZZZZYY, truly gives you lots to think about. I like that class a lot. Speaking of managers though, work is crraazzzy, can you guys tell that's my new word.

Life at Club Monaco I tell ya. Managers are getting fired left, right, and center. I hate having to adjust to new bosses who obviously don't know your needs. Thank God I'm dipping out just in time because...

I've got a 4:40 PM flight out of this bitch of an ice box called NY. Yes, my lovelies, I'm going to GA today and super excited about it :) My daddy is graduating from a medical program, sooooo proud of the man, he's worked soooo hard over the last four years. his graduation is tomorrow so I'm making my way on down. Excited to see him, my family, and my God sister. Best part though the weather there is in the 70's It's gonna be 75 tomorrow and 77 on Sat....CRAZZZZYYYYY lol. Can't wait, especially for the awesome food. Speaking of food though...

I've been eating A LOT of it lately. I can just feel my ass and thighs getting bigger, but i must say...I likey hehe.

Biggest news of all though, 2 things. I'm starting a magazine, it's something I've been wanting to do for about 2 yrs now but finally feel inspired enough to do it. I'll be launching it as a website so you guys can look out for that sometime in the spring. Other news, I've got a boyfriend now. He's awesome and I'm super excited about him. I guess I'm super excited about a lot these days huh!

See that smile on my face? It's a niccee genuine one :)

That's everything summed up in a nutshell, will be sure to go into details on a few things next time around. Off to your blogs I go :)

P.S. Yes everyone, i did see the google sign for Dr Seuss' birthday. Super wanted to blog that day just to share it hehe.

Where have I Been You Ask?

...Here, there, and everywhere! School has started as you guys know. The professors are major coolzz and the topics are fun. Just not looking forward to the test. As an English major, I write papers. Test taking isn't really my thing :/


Works okay, I get the hours I need to pay my bills.

Mystery guy is blowing my mind, ♥ him. We've been spending a lot of time together and he makes me really happy. That's all you get :)

Speaking of Mystery Guy after we watched the Super Bowl on Sunday, Poor Cardinals, we also watched my new favorite Sunday night show, Joel Osteen.

Sunday he simply spoke of how we limit ourselves when we really shouldn't. Don't stay in the well when you can venture into the pond, lake, river, or even Ocean :)He advices that we should stretch our faith. It's simple, if your vision increases, your ability to receive increases.
Pretty good words huh!
I'm out!

Random: Pt. I Lost Count

"Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase."

This was the quote I used the other day by Dr. King. I never really got into why it speaks to me, but it really does.

Since the last semester ended, I have been doing everything in my power to get back into school. However, that wasn't working out so I took a leap of faith and decided to stay home hoping everything would work out okay. So far, a lot of positives have happened. They are still in the process of going through, and if they do happen for me, I will be sure to tell you all about it.

I was watching my favorite Sunday evening show again, its my little time I have to connect with the man upstairs, and that message was also a good one.

His topic this week was personal happiness, and here are a few quotes I like from that one:

-No person can take your joy, you have to give it away

-Never pray for god to change somebody else, ask for ya self.

-You've got to be determined to enjoy your life.

-When u allow what someone says to offend u, you're giving away your power.

-Accept the fact that no matter what you do, somebody won't be at peace with you

-You are an eagle. Don't waste your time fighting with crows. Just rise to an altitude the can't. iight, iight lol

The nexr time u have an opportunity to be offended, think of it as an opportunity to develop your character

Good stuff huh?!

On to the random! Yesterday I was getting on the train and this little kid was having a conversation with him mom, the cutest experience ever.

Kid: mommy I wish Obama was my daddy.

Mom: me to

Kid: really mommy, I love Obama.

Now that's something right there :-)

Seems a lot of movies are out right now right?! For some reason I find myself wanting to see all the chic flicks, which are totally making a comeback, might I add. I saw


Luvs its. I've always liked Anne and Kate. Anne in



&



and Kate in



Looking forward to seeing



&



"He's Just Not That Into You," also happens to be a book, did ya know?
I got the book about 4 yrs ago, and lemme tell you guys, its da truth. I suggest it to any of you.

Well so long...& enjoy your Sunday. I have a date to see the Biggie movie :)
CIAO

A Grown Up Kinda Day

So my day yesterday went went well. I wrapped everything up and went back to my house in an attempt to hide out from the 6 degree NYC weather. I swear, I think my brain is frozen, I hate it.I've always been a summer girl, so I'm officially starting my countdown to summer and their is only 4 months to go in my book.

I accomplished a good 99 percent of the things I wanted to do yesterday though, so that's good. The girl actually liked the apartment so now I don't have to worry about that anymore, just getting into school, which gives me extremely heavy boots.

I met up with my bff like I said I would, and it was nice catching up. Her newly married life has kept her kind of busy and we don't ever see each other anymore. So, over extremely cheap Thai food we had lunch and caught up. It was pretty good. We made a promise to try and do something together at least once per month :-)

Well my lovelies. I think I will wrap this up now. I'm out and about in the freezing ass city again, you think I would have learned my lesson from yesterday.

What are your plans for this weekend?

The Desire!

God will never give you the desire with out the ability.



I love how all my quotes are coming into use. So remember I told you guys I had important news to share with my mom. Well I told her.

As you guys know, I attend Temple U in Philly. My financial aid from last year SUCKED. Therefore, fall semester my bill got out of hand. I still owe my school that money. So in order to go back this semester, I would have to pay that obscene amount off and then still have to pay the same thing for Spring semester. so...

I decided to take the semester off :(

God knows it's something I don't want to do, because I LOVE school. However, since I live in NYC I was thinking during the months off while I get my bill together, there is lots of things I could do. Like find an internship, work on my writing, and work on a SPECIAL PROJECT :) , tell you guys more about that later.

But like I said, "God will never give you the desire without the ability," and luckily he has given me the ability to be resourceful. My Uncle is a professor at a CUNY here in NY. So instead of going back to Temple this semester, hopefully I can take classes at his college, save myself about $8,000, and not have to take the semester off. I would be in NY and able to still do an internship and work.

I'm so excited that things SEEEEM to be working out. Those of you who believe in prayer, please say one for me. I'd appreciate it. I really want to do my thing, and be done with school. It's sad that in our society today, a person can't even go to school when they want to...

Keep Your Fingers Crossed Guys

Cause I'm Dreaming...

Okay, I'm back and the exam is over. Can't wait until I get that "A" woop woop!!! If I can I'm def taking another class by "chinese kid" again :)

But on to blog stuff. I've been dreaming a lot of crazy stuff lately. Last night I had a dream that my friend's mom died, i was at my ex's house and so was his girlfriend, and some other randomness. OOOKKKAAAAYYY then...

But the night before was even more interesting.

I drempt that I broke my eye glasses!!!


But trust me, they were a lot more shattered than the pic aboove.



I looked it up online, and this is what is said.
To see broken eyeglasses in your dream, indicates that your vision and perception is impaired. You are not seeing the facts correctly

In addition to that dream, I drempt I was interviewing for a job at



Okay, I could care less about Morgan Stanley, but I was excited as hell to be getting the job. i looked that up as well, and this is what it said:

To dream that you are looking for a job, suggests that you are feeling unfulfilled and frustrated in your current phase of your life. If you are applying to several jobs in your dream, then it suggests that you need more direction and clearer goals.

strange huh? DUNNO!

Anyway. I've deciced to reflect on some presents over the years that rocked my world.

Christmas 1997, Age 10:

Random: Pt. Whateva!

Well December 8th is over and I got through it just fine. I'm really beginning to think I'm getting over him and its a wonderful feeling.

As I type, I'm yet again on my way to NYC. Classes are over for the semester but I still have a few papers to write and a final to take next week. I figure these are all things I can finish up at my home in NY.

I've got a date with my BFF. She hasn't been feeling so well lately, her back is all messed up. With school and everything, I haven't had the opportunity to be there for her so since I finally have some time, we're gonna have a sleep over tonight. Yes we are 21 and 24 and still have sleep overs lol. I'll go to the doc with her tomorrow, and we'll get to spend the day together. At a time like this, I need to be there for her because she is always there for me :)

Besides all that stuff, I'm just here, checking in on you guys. Hope to hear from you all soon.

P.S. Don't you all missy my sissy sexxy luv as much as I do? :/

He said...

... You're the kind of women I want to represent me.

Someone said that to me, can't tell ya'll who hehe, and I thought it to be the sweetest thing I've ever heard. hmmm...

Anyway, I'm just here trying to get by. It's been a loooong week. Trying to wrap up school and it's no joke. 2 presentations, 3 test, four 10 page papers, and two 5 pagers. Man I hardly ever curse but

It's like professors really believe their class is ya world. Why would one person assign a final paper, exam, and presentation. Selfish!!!

Hopefully, I can get some of that done this weekend although I work everyday. I wanna see my bestfriend as well, miss her. Guess we have to see how that goes.

On a brighter note though... I'm about to start on my Christmas List. I love Christmas, don't know where I'm getting these presents from, but hey..I believe in this guy
LOL

off to your blogs I go!!!

The Truth: Pt. 2

First and foremost, this one is for my sissy:

Ain't it cute! lol

On to truth telling we go...

I'm not as brilliant as everyone presumes me to be.

My entire life I've always been the girl who got good grades in school. For the first ten yrs of my life I grew up with my mom and her 2 sisters so you guys can only imagine all the attention and guidance I got as the only child in my home. I was groomed, disciplined, and always did what I was suppose to.

These women, and it seems everyone else in my life, expect so much of me and the rest-including people in my very own family- are just waiting for me to fail.

My mom, as she says it, is the "black sheep" of the family and honestly of all her brother's and sister-15 of them all together- I'm the only one actually doing what I'm suppose to among the kids.

So at the end of the day I have a great fear of disappointing my mom, letting my family down, and fulfilling the dreams of the Nay Sayers.

Not only that though, I'm well aware that I do just enough to get me by and it makes me sick. If I were more dedicated to my achievements, I would be so better off. Sure I attend a good university and am on track but being average gets you nowhere. I know I can do better and live up to my true potential.

It gets even worst. Lately I've been feeling lost. As a little girl I always wanted to be a lawyer. But as high school rolled around I decided journalism was the way to go because I loved that too. All through out college I knew this was what I wanted to do. Now that senior year is here, I'm confused. WTF!! Should I go to law school next year? Politics is so much fun. I'm very much so interested in government. Should I get a masters in English? Should I go to grad school for journalism? Ugh!!! I need some guidance. Maybe I'm just scared. Actually, I am scared.

A.M. Has Reached Her 100th!!!!

1st and foremost it's my:


Woop woop. go meeee!!! Can't believe I've been with you guys 4 quite sometime now. Thank you all for coming through everytime you do and supporting my thoughts, adventures, trials, and woes :)

Special shout outs to Ms. Karrie B, she was sort of my inspirtation for doing a blog. I really enjoyed hers and thought, "I too may be good at this...in my own way."

Other dedicated readers such as my sissy Sexxy luv, Andre, Ms. Lovely, P.Y.T., alwaysz, Taryn, KMX, Eb, P.N., I can't compain, Stephen...the list def goes on- you are my blog.(feel like I'm accepting an award hahahA) If I didn't have you guys to reflect upon my thoughts here in blog land, it all just wouldn't be complete.

Here's to lots more post!!!

Moving on to the nexxt:


As u guys may have noticed I've been kinda mia for a bit. I've been around your
blogs and all, just haven't done that much with mine. Sure I've made post on
beyonce, songs I'm currently jamming too, & crazy psycho girl, but those are all
of the externals, what I like to call, a lil fluff.

You see, over the last two weeks,I haven't quite been myself on and off. I feel
like I have no control over my life sometimes, and I've never liked that
feeling. My life pretty much consist of 3 aspects as of now. School, my job, and
family and friends. A 4th aspect usta be somewhere in there, but he no longer exist.

So let's see how its really been:

School- its one of those things that's solely based on how I prepare myself. If
I BS my grades are average, if I do what I need to, they're hot. Simple right? I
need to stop the BSing then, because I am not average.

Work: Work is ugh. If you guys may not know, I work for Club Monaco, its kinda
been my gig through college. Helps to pay for my apt at school, supports and
spending habbit, and helps with my bills. Usually I work at my nyc location, but
go back to Philly's location when school starts. I've been back and I hate it.
Therfore, I've decide to venture into nyc every weekend since I'm more
comfortable there, but its been a bit of a hassle.

Friends and family: no problems there :) I love those guys the most, because they
love me the most. Yesterday I met up with my BFF-since I've been at school over
the last 3 weeks. We did some light shopping ( can't stop us when we're together
lol) had some thai for dinner, and ventured home on the sucky ole nyc subway
system. Been making a ton of new friends at school too...so its great.

the 4th aspect: Like I said before, no longer exist but it still does in my heart ugh. We shall dicuss in another post, just too much to get through.

But since I've been gone for a min, here's what I've been up to:


Playing with YOSHI!!! My roomie's doggie. ♥ him


beer with the guys next door YUCK!!! beer is gross


Which included beer pong...hehe


took a trip into the city the other day with a friend to this cool music store


They had cool old records :)


even visited this mosaic house. the guy built it all on his own, on South St. from TRASH


coool chair huh?


South St. Lots of fun...


... & food!!!


Went to a football game for school: Temple University (owls) vs. Ohio


the game was in support for Breast cancer, so it was a PINK out game. U know I was in there like swim wear because I'm a woman and I love pink!!


it was hella fun and these guys were hella funny, except for the Phillies red hats ugh. Bet u can pick me out in this picture lol


we were really cold- the roomie and I- but we can still smile :)


football booty LMAO

At the end of the night it was a fun game and we beat their ass allllllllll ova ESPN. WOOP WOOP!!!

It's what I've been up to!
Whew!!! that was a long one :)

Guess whose Back!!!!

So Vegas was totally the SHIT. My mind is blown. Can't wait to share the experience with you guys. But i took so many pictures I don't even know where to start. Vegas was #3 of 4 birthday events I'm having so the pics are well in the hundreds range by now. SMH.

Anyhow..super tired from Vegas's different time zone. But I promise to share it all with you really really soon. Right now I'm jetting back to Philly- you guys won't believe how much HW i have to get done...here's a sneak peak for ya though:

I'll be BACKKKKKK

1st Day of School- Super Stressed!!!

This is what I wanna know...why does something that's so necessary-I'm speaking of a college education- cost soooooooo much. I am so stressed, I have this huge ass pimple growing out of my chin.

To make a long story short, I didn't pay my bill from spring semester so I had to do so today in order to sign up for classes. I finally payed that one off, only to have the one for this semester pop up right in my face. OMG!!! WHYYYYYYY. Every thing cost so much. I have no idea why kids wanna grow up. Gotta pay for school, rent, books, food(if I Don't wanna die) every fucking thing. I've been running round Philadelphia all day like a mad woman tryna straighten my life out. At least I got myself into 6 classes ( an overload semester) which is most important. Hopefully when I wake up tomorrow, I will be able to tell you guys about what I'm taking this semester.

This one's kinda short because the computer lab at school is about to close and I don't have cable and Internet in my apartment yet. Ugh, what am I gonna do? HW!!! More ugh. I miss my NYC! :(

This is Exactly How I Feel!!!

Like I'm Bout 2 EXPLODE!!!

Off 2 Philly I Go...

...On that School Flow!!! Here's to the finally yr. of my undergraduate career...can somebody say Woop Woop with me?!!! :)

I miss NY already :(

Randominess Pt.3- Mad Sh*T

Okay so I haven't been around in two days. That's just really because photobucket was acting up. Anyhow, what's new? side note: MY MOM IS ANNOYING THE SHIT OUT OF ME AS I CURRENTLY TYPE!!!

but like I was saying, just a bunch of randomness lately. Most Importantly, I was reading the New York 2 days ago.

The article pretty much spoke on the topic of race. You know, how people act as if it no longer exist in this particular political race for president but it obviously does. According to the article, "it's a race consumed by race." Although our fare Barak has got the young, minority, and white woman Caucasian vote, the older Caucasian man just won't along with the "uneducated pale face voter"-because you know they're just ignorant. But I suggest you read up on it, cool article. On to the next...

So the reason I was even reading that article was because I went to Rite Aid. Needed to get a new tooth brush cause the one in my house just miraculously disappeared. I was really tempted to get this one...



hehe. But I just couldn't because, come on it was a kiddy one and the brush was too small. I really wanted to though :)

More randomness. Don't I look pretty in the box???



A certain someone came over my house, reference "Getting 2 know me(section 2 things I wanna do right now)" if you're that interested in knowing who, and put me in a box SMH. It was fun though and mad comfortable. I know I'm a weirdo hehe.

But even more weird than me is this pic the bestie PTY sent me.



Incase you were wondering, this dude's final request was to be standing up at his funeral...VERY FREAKY...Yikes!!!

Other than all that madness, I'm just chillin. School starts in less than 2 weeks. Can you believe it??! AHHHHHH!!! But even better, my B-day is in 3weeks and so is Vegas. Been doing all sorts of shopping for it. SO excited, but I guess you can tell.

What you guys been up to lately...how's life? I wanna know :)

Everything!

SO I haven't written in awhile because things have been kind of crazy. Probably way too much to write but here goes everything. Let's see. Different aspects of my life would include school, my job, family, friends, and the boyfriend. Believe it or not people, I'm having problems with EVERY aspect I just listed.

Let's start with school. Obviously it is the end of the semester and I am so backed up with work it's not even funny. Papers to write, finals to take, OMG when will it all end. I know, i know, it sounds like I'm complaining but after 3 yrs of college, I swear I never get use to this end of semester madness. But of course everything seems more difficult because...

The boyfriend is acting up. Yea, I'm putting it out there. Hey, we all have ways in which we express our feelings, and this just happens to be mine. After almost three years of the going back and forth he has decided this just isn't working. Isn't it crazy how it takes two people to get into the relationship but just one to get out of it? You have no say, how you feel doesn't matter. All you can do it accept the fact that the person you know deep down inside is meant for you, can't see the real truths. & the hardest part is after trying about 4 times to make things work you know the LOGICAL thing to do is to let go. That's what men do, think "logically." But it's difficult when your heart tells you, letting go isn't the way to go. It's all way too difficult. So...you folks could only understand the type of stress I'm under. & Really this seems to be ruining other parts of my life too...i.e. my job.

The other day because I was having a discussion with him about the relationship, I totally missed work which I thought would be okay at the time. I mean come on, I personally believe nothing at Club Monaco is more important than me doing what I think is more important for me. But not only that, my boss be trippin'. Yep I said it. That chick is crazy. She obviously thinks I'm not doing a good job there which is blowing my mind. I mean I did wonderfully on my appraisal, got a raise a month ago, but yet I'm not doing well. tsk tsk. It's okay though, I can handle her.

Oh yea, so I guess I exaggerated. My friends are the shit and I don't know where I would be without them :) and my family is quite the supportive bunch. I guess I just wanted to get it all out and hopefully I'll be back soon with more positive post.

On a brighter note, Happy Mother's Day to all of the mommies out there :)