1 Step At a Time!!!!!

So I'm walking home from school through whack ass north philadelphia and decided to blog in the process to avoid the whack ass men of north philadelphia. In the process, I look down at my kicks...

...& they're pretty fresh. Don't mind me, I'm not a sneaker girl at all. You guys remember what my shoe closet looked like, all shoes. But for some reason, I've been wearing sneakers all week..hmpph I'm changing...

well on to studying for my Victorian lit exam...

I've Found Myself...well at least 4 today.

I'm just a girl, but a new found WOMAN, truly enjoying life to the fullest. As I embark on my 21st yr of life, i know that my journey is just beginning so I've made a lot of changes. Changes of the mind and heart. I've learnt that, "everything you wants not meant to be," and "Just cause I love u and u love me, It doesn't mean that that we're meant to be." I know that people change, things happen and sometimes you just have to let it go. I know that friends come and go and somethings that's just the way it has to be. I'm convinced that in order to get where we want, we've got to put ourselves there. I've learnt that "you really don't deserve me." I know that, acceptance is the key & life goes on. I know that if you think this is about you, you're exactly who I finally see you to be. I know that "trouble ain't gon be here very day,"and I know that I'm stronger than you think I am. I'm finally happy :)

Noooooooooooo! Not my BlackBerry!!

So I'm sitting here in British Literature blogging VIA my Blackberry. Speaking of my Blackberry, my boss knocked it off the table, cracked the screen in the corner, and knocked out the little ball that scrools. OMG!!! You guys know I almost had a heart attack. My phone is my life. Don't really wanna walk around with a cracked screen so I called T-mobile and they said-with insurance- I would have to pay130 dollars to get a new one. Really I don't think I should have to pay it especially since I didn't mess it up and I don't think I should have to look at the crack all day. Do you guys think I should call her up and be like, "ah yea, it cost 130 dollars to fix my phone, get on it!"? Besides that, I guess everything else is okay. Worked all weekend so I had no time for blogging. Now I'm back at school sitting in my 5th class for today. Hope to hear from you guys soon :)

I'm Pregnant!!!

Lmfao...Jay kay, jay kay!!! Okay so I'm not really pregnant, but I was in my freaking dream I just woke up from. I did get cable today (woop woop) but I still had JUNO on DVD and I never got to watch it.


In the middle of the movie however I fell asleep and I had a dream: I drempt that I was having a baby and it was by HIM.Yes him again. WTF is going on with me? This shit is crazy. Anyhow, his entire family was happy in the dream but he was on some. "if you have it imma dead u both" and I was all crying in my dream :( more ugh moments. First the crying and thinking of him through 27 dresses now this. What does all of this mean?

I Cried Today...

So my cable in my apt at school hasn't been set up yet and I'm left to watching DVDs while I'm at home. Yesterday I was on campus and bought 27 Dresses. I've been meaning to watch it for some time now but never got around to it. It was on sale for 9.99 & ya just can't beat that.

For those of you who haven't seen it...in short it's about this girl/woman who is in love with planning weddings, putting people first, and not giving her own life a shot. She was hopelessly in love with her boss, who later on fell for her sister, and she ended up planning their wedding. Until a journalist came along, played the shit out of her by exposing her obsession with attending weddings via the NY journal, but then in the end stole her heart and they got married.

yada yada yada with the little information. At the end of the movie I was so happy for her that she finally got what she wanted and was able to attend her own wedding with the one true guy she loved.

Then all of a sudden, I began to cry!!! Don't even know what that was about. I don't usually cry when I watch chic flicks, I rather enjoy them. Then I got to thinking about that person...
& my heart felt broken all over again. Sure it's been 5 months now and I'm feeling a lot better. I never really cry-well except for today. But it's still there. I still think of him on the daily and wonder why...ugh...
Love is a loosing game! :/