Monday, November 10, 2008

The Truth:: Pt. 1

I'm a lonely person. Not just some of the times but most of the times. The sad part is, I've always been lonely, for years now.

I spend so much time talking in my head because there is no one to talk to. When I'm away at school I wake up, go to class, get done what I need to, and then go home. I'm always by myself.

Holidays are the worst time ever, in fact I'm dreading thanksgiving and christmas. My family consist of myself and my mom. Don't get me wrong, I'm very thankful for her...but the events of it all just isn't cheerful. Then I'm left to think of all the happy people I know and how much of a good time they are having with their families. On these days I seriously lay in bed all day just waiting for the day to pass.

I'm lonely because I am alone... and I don't know what I need or what will make it or me better.

13 inspirations:

Sexxy Luv said...

awww sissy...i felt your pain as i read your words.

i have no real advice cause my life is kinda the same, i just have children in my equation.

maybe you are just a loner....i dunno, no real advice this time sorry.

hugz

Andre said...

sweetheart if you gauge your happiness ons omeone else... thats just bad biz. I'm the same way a loner by nature and I would say a majority of bloggers are. You just gotta say to yourself "i'm by myself and I'm a ok"

Eb the Celeb said...

I think as women we all get like this from time to time... the reason men call us crazy.. because we can be down and feeling alone when there isn't anything wrong so they don't know how to fix it... best believe this time will pass... the best thing to do is busy yourself... whether its writing, reading, walking, or dating yourself, staying busy will help until it passes

Judy D. said...

the simple answer is to share thanksgiving with those ppl who are sharing it with their families and friends.... there is nothing wrong with spending some time with mom and then going over yr bf's house and eating there... why sit home n be sad, go celebrate

as far as being a loner goes, i understand that. i actually prefer it, BUT the alone time is only good if it is constructive...

btw, thanksgiving isn't a great holiday anyway- its the day where a lot of natives lost their land

i say Fuck thanksgiving... its just a gimmick, just like Christmas

whats important is feeling loved. go to a friend's house

Melody.Darlene said...

u are not alone... you have us!! ok so i kno it sounds cheesy, but on some real shit, blog fam is real! like we open up to eachother more on our blogs than we do with ppl in our own personal lives. it's just easier sometimes! gimmie ur addy so i can send ur ass a holiday card! keep ur head up boo!

Emeka Amakeze said...

You are lonely because you chose to be! You don't have to wait for the day to pass; make the days watch you do your thing. There is always a kindred spirit out there.... http://streamsong.blogspot.com

Ms. Lovely said...

aww..i so feel you. I feel the same way sometimes. But if you have a good friend or someone you can talk too, please do..you don't have to be lonely

1/3 said...

aww its ok feel alone sometimes. u can feel alone in big families as well.

I think its a virgo thing tho lol. Im def a loner too when i want to be..

A.M. said...

@ Everyone:
Now worries. I'm not gonna kill myself or n e thing lol. I am an only chilld and have been by myself for the last 21 yrs. I have accepted that I'm a loner but lately for some reason, it's been getting to me...dunno. I guess I will be just fine:)

A.M. said...

@ Everyone:
Now worries. I'm not gonna kill myself or n e thing lol. I am an only chilld and have been by myself for the last 21 yrs. I have accepted that I'm a loner but lately for some reason, it's been getting to me...dunno. I guess I will be just fine:)

Velle Of CPC said...

I Feel The Exact Same Way & I Have No Clue What To Do About It.

kmx. said...

Aww. I know how you feel =[
I can be in the most crowded room sometimes and I'll still feel alone. And the only advice I can give you is to accept that you're alone! There's positives to it to...I've learned to love it..so much I might actually unknowingly push people away.

Keep your head up girlie, the good always overcomes the bad. =]

Da Hunni Toya said...

AWww you will be okay sweetie