Out with the Old (2008)...

2008 was an interesting year for me. I can't say it was either good nor bad. I have so much to be thankful for. A wonderful family, great best friends, an education, MY LIFE, and the man upstairs who def loves me.

A few things didn't go so well as you guys may know. I lost the only guy I've ever loved, and I'm still trying to get over that situation. I figure the first step into having a productive 2009 is being honest with myself. & that acceptance is, I still love you!

No not you guys in blog land, well I love you all too, but I mean him...

However, I will be trying a new approach. You guys remember Eb talked about how every year they are people she just doesn't take into the new year, I think I might try that. Some people just belong in the pass and that is where he, & a few others, will stay.

This is the first year is 3 years I'm starting the yr off as a single girl, but that's okay...my momma brought me into the world alone :)

Over all though, thinking positevely, '08 was good to me. I"m still here right?!
& you guys have been awesome. You all helped me get through this year & I've grown to appreciate each and everyone of your blogs in different ways.

see you guys in '09.

So long...

Another Day

"I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see."
--John Burroughs
So like I said in my last post, nothing much happening over here. Just trying to figure my life out, but in a good way.

Thinking about school, jobs, you know that kind of thing. I've been at work everyday for the last 6 days...so that's been that.

But really...I'm just trying to decide how to step into my '09. '08 an interesting one...but we'll talk more about that tomorrow.

How's your final week of '08 coming along?

HAHa!!! Don't wanna take my Christmas play list off...I luvs it :(

The Halo on my Diva!

Alrighty...

I'm back. Nothing much to share today actually. Just here obsessing over My Bey's new videos

Diva




Halo




I swear I love this girl. She's so Virgolicious in Diva and so girly and youthful in Halo.

Oh yea, seriously if you don't like the videos you're bugging and please please go hate somewhere else..luvs ya hehe :)

EDIT!!!

courtesy of my gurl Cat Hill I was told Ciara made a remix to my Bey's Diva. Here it goes:

major WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
C needs to sit her ass down. Don't like it.
okay...I'm done :)

Can you guys tell I'm passionate about my Bey?

The Perfect Christmas Present

So Christmas was okay. Nothing special really happened until i received the perfect Christmas Present.

Don't really want to get into it yet, but there is this guy I know. Him and I talk quite frequently, let's say everyday, for hours. I remember once telling him that when I was a little girl i got "Grover Goes to School" as a present from a teacher for doing well in all of my classes. It was one of my favorite books and i lost it.

So guess what guys???

this is what he got me for Christmas...

Yep he sure did get me this book. Ahh man. I hate opening presents infront of people because I feel like that's the one time they can tell how I truly feel. I was smiling ALLLLLLLL over the place

Pretty cool guy!!!

Merry Christmas!!!

"I will honor Christmas in my heart, and try to keep it all the year." - Charles Dickens."



Merry Christmas Blog Fam

& for my sissy:


I expected a google sign that was very Merry Christmas but I guess not sissy. Hope you and the kids are having a very merry one.

Cause I'm Dreaming Pt.2

Happy Christmas Eve guuuyyss. So much to share with you all as usual. Over the last couple days I've been kinda weird. You know happy, then upset, stressed. I think its all due to the fact that I'm broke. Like dead broke :( Or maybe it's just early PMSing.

With school and work I only make enough to pay for the necessities so shopping has been at an all time minimal.

But anyway last night I had another one of thooossee dreams...

It was super weird.

I dreamt that my bff from high school and I were going to an event. You guys ever seen one of those movies or shows when the kids are in high school and its one of those dances when the girl has to ask the guy but she waits too long, ask later, only to find out that some other girl has asked him? Well my dream was like that.

So my bff and I go to the event. In order to ask the guy, you have to give them a clear gift box with a red bow. My bff gave hers to her real life husband and he accepted it and they were happy.

Get this! My two options was my ex and one of his good friends. This friend of his I swear I am sooooo not attracted to him at all. And no its not on some subconscious shit, I don't like that nig.

So I'm standing there trying to decide who I should give my box to, and after some thought, I gave it to my ex. Except his new GF popped up and put her box in his hand before I could put mine. So I was just like "okay" and moved on to his friend.

But as I was about to give the gift to the friend, his friend's real life gf popped up and gave him her box.

I ran off crying and embarrassed.

A friend of mine analyzed it and I was like,"wow you are awesome."

But what do you guys think this dream could mean?

Besides that...
Today is my munchkin's-the ex's little brother- 3rd Birthday!!!



He's one of those little kids you can't help to love, and he's growing up so fast. Remember when he was just like a day old.

Happy Birthday my Munchkin!

Happy Birthday Mommy!

12/22/08

Guy's it's my mommy's 40th birthday. I could go on and on about how great she is, but I tell you guys that all the time. So here's a birthday song for my #1 woman by my #2 woman hehe:



♥ u Mommy!!!

Sharing is Caring!

Quite a bit to share with you guys today!!! Ready?

Girl Meets Boy
Girl meets boy standing on the 1 train platform. Boy starts talking to girl.
Girl finds boy intriguing. Boy takes 3 train, girl takes 2 train. Boy's train
comes first and he opts to not take it and wait for 2 train with girl. 2 train
comes and boy and girl get on together. Boy and girl engage in conversation
about quite a bit. Guy flirts, girl flirts back. Guy and girl cover careers, school, art, locations, and some more on the 15 min train ride. Guy stop arrives and guy says to girl,"nice meeting u!" and slowly but surely exits the train.

WTF just happened? I thought we were connecting? I guess not. Super weird man.
And honestly he seemed like he wanted to ask for the number but something was
holding him back.
Oh wellz...

Scratched out...Erased

So today I'm at work on my Blackberry browsing through Face Book, looking for a friend who happens to have the same name as my ex. A list of all my friends with the same name pops up, but I notice the ex is no longer on the list. I type in his name, and low and behold, that shit straight up read, "You don't have a friend by the name if M*****." First words out my mouth, "oh wow!" He really deleted me as a friend. Let's see, felt bad for .0000000000001 sec then laughed. I told a friend about it, and she said it's probably his girlfriend's doing, I'm like okay, that's immature. Regardless of the fact that we had a relationship, I kept him on there because we still went to high school together and all of my friends on there are people I went to school with since elementary. She- my friend- says it shows he's thinking of you. I say...hope he's not.
Oh wellz...

Christmas gift 2005, Age 18

HEY HEY HEY!!! At that time it was HOT...and everyone wanted one :) & I luved Pink!

Cause I'm Dreaming...

Okay, I'm back and the exam is over. Can't wait until I get that "A" woop woop!!! If I can I'm def taking another class by "chinese kid" again :)

But on to blog stuff. I've been dreaming a lot of crazy stuff lately. Last night I had a dream that my friend's mom died, i was at my ex's house and so was his girlfriend, and some other randomness. OOOKKKAAAAYYY then...

But the night before was even more interesting.

I drempt that I broke my eye glasses!!!


But trust me, they were a lot more shattered than the pic aboove.



I looked it up online, and this is what is said.
To see broken eyeglasses in your dream, indicates that your vision and perception is impaired. You are not seeing the facts correctly

In addition to that dream, I drempt I was interviewing for a job at



Okay, I could care less about Morgan Stanley, but I was excited as hell to be getting the job. i looked that up as well, and this is what it said:

To dream that you are looking for a job, suggests that you are feeling unfulfilled and frustrated in your current phase of your life. If you are applying to several jobs in your dream, then it suggests that you need more direction and clearer goals.

strange huh? DUNNO!

Anyway. I've deciced to reflect on some presents over the years that rocked my world.

Christmas 1997, Age 10:

Time 2 put in Work!

On my way back to philly to take one effin final for my leadership class. Oh well, gotta do what cha gotta do. It shouldn't be hard at all though.

Wish me good luck!!! :)

My Grown Up Christmas List

This girl's got expensive taste. I may not want much, but everything I want is pretty darn up there. Check out my

My Grown Up Christmas List!



An I-Touch would be pretty sweet


Some UGGs to keep my toezes warm


Every girl wants Tiffany's ;)


I really wanna be rocking one of these this winter...But I highly doubt it. $1,990.00 Prada Jacket. Maybe something similar?

& hey if Santa Clause Really exist...


My BEEEEEEE LOL

What's on your Christmas List?

My BFF is Better Than Yours!!!

Today is another day, the beginning of the weekend. Weekends don't really speak to me anymore because I work everyday through them since I have classes during the week.

But anyhow, my bestie and I had lots of fun together, as usual, doing our regular nothing lol.


She came over Wed night. When I got home from school, in Philly, she was sitting in my living room waiting, was SOOOOOOOOOOO excited to see her. We just chilled for the rest of the evening and got ready for our Thursday.

Woke up Thursday morning and it won't stop raining. A little rain couldn't hold us down though, so we journeyed off to her therapy appointment for her back. It's crazy all the things she has to do there, but I'm happy cause she is beginning to feel better.

We then went to her job, she had to get some stuff done there, since her back is messed up and after ventured into the village for some Thai at Prem-on .It's a cool Thai Restaurant we discovered for my 20th Birthday.

Pic came out blurry, but we're power nerds...gotta take our glasses off to eat.

After a Thai lunch in the rain, we ventured off to our play land- Toy R Us- to buy PINK UNO, but they were sold out. I'm obsessed with the Pink Board Games, already have Pink Monopoly. Gonna have a Pink Martini Party, you guys wanna come?

It was pretty much a rap after that, because it wouldn't stop raining. So we just came back to my house, ordered some Dominoes, watched What "Happens in Vegas...", and fell out.

Having a best friend Rocks!!!

P.S. I had mad pics to share but stupid ass Photobucket was acting up...AGAIN!

Random: Pt. Whateva!

Well December 8th is over and I got through it just fine. I'm really beginning to think I'm getting over him and its a wonderful feeling.

As I type, I'm yet again on my way to NYC. Classes are over for the semester but I still have a few papers to write and a final to take next week. I figure these are all things I can finish up at my home in NY.

I've got a date with my BFF. She hasn't been feeling so well lately, her back is all messed up. With school and everything, I haven't had the opportunity to be there for her so since I finally have some time, we're gonna have a sleep over tonight. Yes we are 21 and 24 and still have sleep overs lol. I'll go to the doc with her tomorrow, and we'll get to spend the day together. At a time like this, I need to be there for her because she is always there for me :)

Besides all that stuff, I'm just here, checking in on you guys. Hope to hear from you all soon.

P.S. Don't you all missy my sissy sexxy luv as much as I do? :/

Happy Happy Birthday Baby!

LMFAO....so I guess it's a good thing, that as I listen to this song, I laugh. It doesn't despress me at all. I think this kind of behavior warrnts us dropping that 4% to a 3% huh. Maybe not. But Still...

It's the ex's birthday. Surely not gonna call, text, IM, facebook, myspace, or any other form of communication. So i guess I'll vent wanting to say Happy Birthday here in Blog Land.
Happy Birthday Loser...Hope you choke on Birthday Cake!!!

He said...

... You're the kind of women I want to represent me.

Someone said that to me, can't tell ya'll who hehe, and I thought it to be the sweetest thing I've ever heard. hmmm...

Anyway, I'm just here trying to get by. It's been a loooong week. Trying to wrap up school and it's no joke. 2 presentations, 3 test, four 10 page papers, and two 5 pagers. Man I hardly ever curse but

It's like professors really believe their class is ya world. Why would one person assign a final paper, exam, and presentation. Selfish!!!

Hopefully, I can get some of that done this weekend although I work everyday. I wanna see my bestfriend as well, miss her. Guess we have to see how that goes.

On a brighter note though... I'm about to start on my Christmas List. I love Christmas, don't know where I'm getting these presents from, but hey..I believe in this guy
LOL

off to your blogs I go!!!

Can I Have a Coke Please!

The little girl sat on her aunt's lap bouncing up and down with excitement.

"Auntie can I have a coke pleaseee," she whined.

Her aunt, only nine years younger than the child, shook her head.
"Your mom said no soda," she said trying her best to maintain a stern voice.

"I won't tell mommy if you don't tell."

She smiled at the child's cleverness.

"Okay. Just this once Ashmalli."

The little girl hopped off her leg, raced to the door, and put on her shoes.

"Ready!"She shouted at her aunt.

*****

The aunt poured the little girl a half class of coke, and began to drink the rest of the drink from the bottle. Seeing this, the little girl knew she needed to have some more. She began to gulp the soda. It burnt her little throat but she didn't stop. She squeezed her eyes together, stomped her little feet, all the while coninuing to drink.
"Ahhh. All done aunty. Can I have some..." But before she could finish the sentence she saw the empty bottle.

Her aunt began to laugh,
"I told you you could only have a bit."

The little girl sighed and shook her head. She had always been taught about greed and today she received the ultimate lesson. Her little soul was grateful.
.
"You're th best aunty, I love you."

"I love you too niece," the aunt replied giving the little girl a hug.

*****

True story ya'll. Even though I'm 21, and my aunt is 30 now. I still look up to her in that way.
Happy birthday aunt Ange!!!

Everything December Holds in Store!

It's the first day of the month and the last day of the year. This month should be an interesting one...

Oh Yea!!!

- My mom's birthday on the 22nd and she turns a significant age.
- One of my favorite Auntie's Birthday is tomorrow.
- No DUUUHHHHH, Christimas!!!
- My munchkin turns 3- on Christmas Eve- hehe...the ex's little brother. Luvs him :)

Not so hot!!!
-It's the holidays. Either I'm gonna be really happy or really depressed I'm shooting for happy

- My ex's birthday is in a week and I know imma be thinking of it until then.

- Semester wraps up, and this is when things get CRAZY!!!

....Oh December!

REVISED 10 MINS AFTER POSTING!!!
Bump the effin' negatives. I'm so tired of crying, stressin, making a damn fool of myself...over someone who is happy as shit with their new life. Moving onward!!!